For a long time, I had been building this site and learning about hope, bitachon, and trusting in Hashem’s salvation. I felt my heart and mind opening to a new way of seeing things and developing a deeper connection with Him. I even reflected: now that I understood Hashem’s power, why was I ever nervous? It became clear to me that Hashem loves me and wants what is best.

Then suddenly, everything I had learned was put to the test. I am a software developer, and for years I worked remotely as a freelancer. Out of nowhere, my biggest client pulled out because they didn’t have the funds. At first, I was shocked and hurt—but then everything I had learned about emunah and bitachon came into play.

Opportunities seemed to fall from every direction—but nothing worked out. Days turned into weeks, weeks into months. Our savings were dwindling. I am the sole provider for my family; my husband has been learning Torah for the last 25 years, and I want to support him so he can continue. It wasn’t easy, and there were moments I felt weak and frustrated. Yet I kept davening and trusting that Hashem would help me now, just as He had in the past. I reminded myself: I want a job because I want to do Hashem’s ratzon. I don’t need wealth—I just want to support my family.

I had always worked from home while my children were young, sometimes taking on work below my level that I didn’t enjoy—but I didn’t want to risk changing things while it was working. Now that my children were older, I wanted a position in a real company—but without compromising my standards: part-time, all-women’s office. Everyone told me it was nearly impossible. I trusted that Hashem could do anything and that He wouldn’t penalize me for trying to serve Him in the best way I thought possible.

Every time I davened Shemoneh Esrei, I would stop at the first bracha and focus on the word “Elokeinu”, which means “Master of all strength, Who can do anything and deals with us with hashgacha pratis,” and reflect on the hashgacha pratis I had felt throughout my life—the times I was in difficult situations with no way out and how Hashem pulled me through. I also reflected on the words “Eilokei Avoseinu”—how Hashem took our ancestors out of Mitzrayim, split the Yam Suf, and supported them with the manna in the desert. From these reflections, I drew strength for the future. Just like Hashem helped me in the past and brought yeshuos and parnassah to our ancestors, I trusted He would help me now.

B”H, yesterday I was offered a position—exactly what I had been hoping for: part-time, in an all-women’s office. The truth is, I reached out to this company right at the beginning of my nisayon. Looking back, I realize the yeshuah was always there. Hashem wanted me to wait, to deepen my emunah, and to rely on Him fully. This made me reflect on the fact that the yeshuah is always there waiting for the right moment, we just need to draw close to Hashem to receive it.